RestartThat’s kind of what my life is right now. A restart. I am about 8 weeks into life without a job.
So, I am going to assume, reader, that you haven’t read any of my posts before today. Not many have, you see. And that’s ok. Because part of why I write is for me.
I will fill you in. I was laid off from my awesome non-profit gig managing a program that served underprivileged youth. I did that job for almost 10 years. I really liked it and those I worked with, but it was demanding and the environment was sometimes hostile.
The work, the program, my team and the participants of the program made what I did worth all the demands of the job and the hostility of the environment.
However, my family often took a backseat. So when I was abruptly laid-off, my family saw it as a good thing. They were tired of of being in the backseat.
I think the The Universe decided to step in for all of us. It pulled me from my vortex of running and RAGING and just decided to
everything for me to take a breath. So I could
And surprisingly, unemployment has been going great. I am being a mother. I am being a wife. My family comes first. I haven’t been late for almost every appointment because I was rushing from the office. I have cooked meals that don’t come out of the microwave–I actually cut up vegetables. My family wants to eat what I cook.
My family is happy and even more surprisingly, I am happy, too. I like being a mother and a wife. I think everyone was a little nervous at first, including me. They were afraid I would get bored.
But I am not. Because I am getting my ReStart.
I am pursuing my love of writing and creating art.
I have an Etsy shop. I started in 2013 and it has been a hobby for me for the last 5 years. This restart became an opportunity. An opportunity I embraced with both arms.
Well, I have created all of my social media accounts. I am pinning on Pinterest like a mad woman. I am blogging every week.
Painting. Writing. Restarting.
And things seem to be moving! My Instagram followers have doubled. My presence and impressions on Pinterest continue to increase. My stats and views on Etsy keep growing as I add pieces. 1000 people read my first blog post.
And 50 read my second. WAHHHHH.
And no one is buying. I haven’t had an Etsy sale in over a month.
And now the mortgage is due and the cell phone bill is due and the credit card bill is due and I am beginning to wonder if this whole restart thing was a good idea after all.
Now I just feel fear. Now I am beginning to see my restart as more like restrain. Repress. Reduce.