ReStart

That’s kind of what my life is right now. A restart. I am about 8 weeks into life without a job.

RestartThat’s kind of what my life is right now. A restart. I am about 8 weeks into life without a job.

So, I am going to assume, reader, that you haven’t read any of my posts before today.  Not many have, you see.  And that’s ok.  Because part of why I write is for  me.

I will fill you in.  I was laid off from my awesome non-profit gig managing a program that served underprivileged youth.   I did that job for almost 10 years.  I really liked it and those I worked with, but it was demanding and the environment was sometimes hostile.

The work, the program, my team and the participants of the program made what I did worth all the demands of the job and the hostility of the environment.

However, my family often took a backseat.   So when I was abruptly laid-off, my family saw it as a good thing.  They were tired of of being in the backseat.

I think the The Universe decided to step in for all of us.  It pulled me from my vortex of running  and RAGING and just decided to

STOP

everything for me to take a breath.  So I could

ReSTART.

And surprisingly, unemployment has been going great. I am being a mother.  I am being a wife. My family comes first.  I haven’t been late for almost every appointment because I was rushing from the office.  I have cooked meals that don’t come out of the microwave–I actually cut up vegetables.  My family wants to eat what I cook.

My family is happy and even more surprisingly, I am happy, too. I like being a mother and a wife.  I think everyone was a little nervous at first, including me.  They were afraid I would get bored.

But I am not. Because I am getting my ReStart.

I am pursuing my love of writing and creating art.

I have an Etsy shop.  I started in 2013 and it has been a hobby for me for the last 5 years.  This restart became an opportunity.  An opportunity I embraced with both arms.

Well, I have created all of my social media accounts.  I am pinning on Pinterest like a mad woman.  I am blogging every week.

Painting.  Writing.  Restarting.

And things seem to be moving!  My Instagram followers have doubled.  My presence  and impressions on Pinterest continue to increase.   My stats and views on Etsy keep growing as I add pieces.  1000 people read my first blog post.

And 50 read my second.  WAHHHHH.

And no one is buying.  I haven’t had an Etsy sale in over a month.

And now the mortgage is due and the cell phone bill is due and the credit card bill is due and I am beginning to wonder if this whole restart thing was a good idea after all.

Now I just feel fear.  Now I am beginning to see my restart as more like  restrain.  Repress.  Reduce.

RETIRE.

Author: wordsmithstudios

Life is about developing relationships. You never know when, where, how, or with whom you will find that special connection and how that connection might change your life. I love words, I love watercolors, and I love how they blend together on a page. I love how words and pictures have the power to move people. What I do has naturally been about SHARING & CONNECTING a little bit of myself with the recipient of my creation. And that is an amazing opportunity! My family inspires and supports me and has taught me so much about the power of relationships. The work I do with youth at a local non-profit organization (which I LOVE), my art, and the great work of others also continue to inspire me each and every day. I am also chronicling experiences in a new blog, Chronicles of the Dangerously Optimistic: ReWriting the Script of Life. You can follow my journey on Wordpress at wordsmithstudios.org Enter my shop here: https://www.etsy.com/shop/worDSMITHstudios

3 thoughts on “ReStart”

  1. I don’t know what Etsy is, but I hope things (re)turn around again for you, Denise. I couldn’t find a ‘Like’ button on this post; do you have them turned on?

    Take care, be well, and happy Blogging!

    Denny

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